meh.

VD depresses me. i’m not so sure why. maybe it’s because it’s a painful reminder of all the heartache i’m going through trying to find someone to be with forever, that is assuming i believe in all of that and if i believe in “forever”. i’m not even sure if true love exists. i believe in love. i believe in the love of friends. i believe in the love of family. and i’ve experienced love in relationships. but what is true love? what is that crap even supposed to mean?

one person in all the world chosen to spend the rest of your entire life with? what if you don’t find this “chosen person” until late in your life? sucks for you?

i really want this day to mean something. the romantic inside me is screaming to make it a special day for me and someone else. but it’s just hard to do when you’re single.

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http://www.godtube.com

I am just beside myself right now.

Your score was 104. Very quirkyalone:

Relatives may give you quizzical looks, and so may friends, but you know in your heart of hearts that you are following your inner voice. Though you may not be romancing a single person, you are romancing the world. Celebrate your freedom on National Quirkyalone Day, February 14th!

Take the quiz here.

i know i’ve said i was supposed to write an entry every day for forty days, and now three days have passed and no entry!

oops!

that’s okay. i know deep down in my heart of hearts that i have an intent on writing more and i know i will. that’s enough for me to feel like i’ve acheived my goal.

what can i say? i’m not perfect. and where’s the fun in being perfect, anyway?

i spent a really nice evening friday doing not much of anything. i’ve rejoined with Netflix and it’s nice to be able to watch these DVDs every now and then. it’s a good thing that i have a social life and i’m very grateful for it. it’s just nice to be able to sit on the couch at home and veg out to DVDs. i finally got to see “Futurama: Bender’s Big Score” and loved it. roommate Aaron didn’t agree with me so much, but i thought it was cute. i was also desperate for new Futurama material, so that may have a lot to do with it. i recommend watching the full episode of Hypnotoad in the DVD extras. i felt like i’ve learned and grown so much since and that i truly did not waste those 22 minutes of my life. (yes, i was being sarcastic, but the novelty of it was just bloody brilliant.)

i intended on getting up early and heading over to the gym on saturday. i left my gym stuff at work since the gym is a block away and i didn’t want to lug it around the city on friday. i was going to stop by the office and get some things done, head over the gym, and probably head out and about downtown and do some shopping. it was really nice out and i wanted to enjoy the day.

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I just signed an open letter to Governor Schwarzenegger asking him to tell the California Supreme Court that current law is unconstitutional and that all loving couples deserve the freedom to marry. Will you sign it too?

Add your name at: http://www.letcaliforniaring.org/justsayit.

In 2008, the California Supreme Court is expected to rule on gay and lesbian couples’ legal right to marry. As a defendant in the case, the Governor’s voice is critical – he can change history.

We need to generate conversations and get every Californian – from Supreme Court Justices, to our elected leaders, to your colleagues at the water cooler – thinking about what the freedom to marry means for LGBT people. That’s why I need you to join me in just saying it – that you support the freedom to marry—and sign the letter asking the Governor to tell the Court that the current law is unconstitutional.

With the Court’s ruling expected this year, showing that Californians support this basic freedom for everyone is critical right now.

So just say it: “I support the freedom to marry,” and join us at: http://www.letcaliforniaring.org/justsayit.

Not too long ago, my iPhone was stolen from me. I’ve since been aching to get a new one and with payday a couple days away, that will soon become a reality. I can hardly wait!

So in preparation of this joyous occasion, I’ve been searching for ways to protect my iPhone from being stolen again. And lo and behold, I’ve come across an ingenius device!

http://hideapod.com/

I’ve never had a Zune. I don’t know how they work. I know some people like them. But are they really that bad? Enough to hide your precious iPod or iPhone in?

This is just too much. I really needed this laugh today. Anyone else find it as funny as I do?

UPDATE: It’s a gag. A brilliantly funny gag. Still, I wish you could order one anyway!

http://quake.usgs.gov/recenteqs/Quakes/nc40204628.html

i’ve just found out this morning that i’m going to be an uncle in about eight months!

i’m pretty excited. i can’t wait to spoil the hell out of my little neice or nephew. and what’s pretty cool is that i think this kid might be a cancer! he or she might be a little gemini, but there’s a pretty good chance he or she might be a cancer like me, my brother, and my dad! my mom and sister-in-law are both tauri.

i just hope that i get to be a part of his or her life. i want to be the cool liberal gay uncle who lives up in san francisco. i’m going to have to visit more.